Sometimes I hate how complex the human mind is. Yes, it is a thing of beauty at times, but right now I would love nothing more than to be a 2-dimensional character in a poorly written fan fiction. In a few hours I will have to take an exam. The first of three this exam period. The last three exams of my university career. And I am scared shit-less. But it doesn’t end there. Oh no. I am also seriously stressing out. I am anxious. I am running on adrenaline. I think I might be in shock, or at least in panic-mode. I know, deep down, that I have done my best to prepare. So tiny notes of courage and confidence are doing their best to ring out amidst the deep bass notes of fear and self-loathing. I can’t just feel one thing. I can’t just be calm, or relaxed, or at peace. I can’t even just be stressed or just be afraid, but instead I am the awful combination of the two and so much more. I will take this exam, and I will likely do just fine, but I will feel dizzy from all these discordant emotions for the rest of the day. And even when the exam is over the insanity continues as notes of relief enter the frenzy. Pleased that this exam is done, I will then repeat the process for the next two. The emotional toll is more exhausting than the actual exam! Wish me luck.
#stunning #red #dress